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Part of my recovery is daily reading and meditation.  I keep an open mind about alternative approaches these days but today's thought stopped me in my tracks.  Not because it is the first time that I've been told to embrace my problems but because it caught me off guard.  Today's thought invoked Ghandi, Lincoln, and Helen Keller as examples of those who became great by rising to the occasion with vision, courage, fortitude, and compassion due to their challenges - not in spite of them.

I've been so angry lately with the TXW that I've inadvertently stepped back from my forward path and started playing in the mud with her.  It has been a struggle to see how I can turn the anger that I feel towards her into a positive.  Ideally the anger would just melt away but I'm unable at this time to let a couple injustices go.  Perhaps in some perverted way I like seeing myself as a victim in this case?  Perhaps I just need the distraction in order to avoid dealing with the 'real' challenges of recovery?  Or perhaps, I'm holding on to this anger because I haven't seen the positive side yet.

Ughhh, anyway.